N.E.D Part 1

Hello All,
First let me start by telling everyone I went to the Doctor on Monday for my CAT Scan test results and guess what it now says in my chart???? N.E.D!!! For those who don't know that stands for NO EVIDENCE OF DISEASE.. That's right I am now Cancer Free!!!!!! Whoohoooo .. I will come back to that news later in in my blog, but just had to start with that. I hope everyone had a safe and wonderful Holiday. Ours was filled with blessings beyond compare. It's been 30 days now since my last Chemo treatment and I feel great. The taste in my mouth is just about gone. Every now and again I get that bad taste in my mouth but not often and food is really starting to taste good again. This could be a good and a bad thing as I seem to have no trouble gaining back all the weight I lost since surgery. I feel like I want to eat everything in sight. It is funny though as I never really lost my appetite during chemo, I just couldn't eat because of the taste in my mouth. I have heard others talk about a metallic taste...but mine was nothing like that. It was just this bad horrible taste along with swollen cheeks, tongue and gums. The fur feeling inside my mouth was the worst I think, but that's all over now and the mouth is doing great. I did lose half of my front tooth Christmas Eve which was pretty upsetting to me. As always though my husband Brian and my daughter Courtney insisted that I was still beautiful with or without half of my front tooth and were adamant about putting me back in the Christmas spirit. Now for those of you who didn't know, my girl Terrie and I had a trip planned to LaGrange the day after Christmas so that we could spend part of Christmas together. First we would make our way to Pa Bob's house for the Reeves family Christmas and then off to her son's house for the Cagle family Christmas. We were so excited about this trip and had been planning it for what seemed to be an eternity. Everything was all set. I was getting better every day it seemed and all I needed was for Terrie to meet me there. Well a few days before our trip I really started to feel tired and weak again.. it struck me as strange that I could get tired so quickly and this worried me a little as the drive to LaGrange is almost a 6 hours, but I pushed along and told myself I would be fine just eat right, get lots of rest and pray ..pray...pray.. so here we are all ready to go and then the night before Christmas half my tooth falls out... well needless to say that on top of being upset about what I looked like now I must decide whether or not I should still go to LaGrange looking like this. Well it really didn't take long as I knew I could in no way tell everyone I wasn't coming because my tooth fell out. They would have come to Yulee, hog tied me and drug me all the way to LaGrange, so I decided I would not cancel my trip, but just try to keep a tight lip as I spoke to anyone and maybe I could cover my mouth when bursting out with laughter as there is always lots of laughter when I am with Terrie's family. I will admit Christmas Eve was not looking too good though.. even after deciding that I would still make the trip I was horrified at the thought of everyone seeing me like this.. I tried hard, but just couldn't seem to shake the feeling that I was really starting to look like a monster now. No hair, a face that had seemed to age 20 years in 4 months time and now my front teeth falling out. As I sat there feeling sorry for myself and wondering how would I go out of the house like this???? In walks my grand babies Bryce and Brylee and behind them my Daughter Mandy and her Husband Johnny.. I know my face lit up the whole room.. just to see my babies.. oh how it made my heart feel so wonderful. My grand babies can truly turn my worst days into the best days .. they make me feel a joy that is just unexplainable.. now after about 30 minutes of watching my little darlings run around my house my daughter gives me the best Christmas gift ever.. she looks at me and says "Momma.. we have decided that we are going to stay here with you tonight, Christmas Eve, so that you can watch your grand babies wake up on Christmas morning and open their gifts under the tree" I cannot tell you what that did for me.. at that very moment and for the rest of the night It didn't matter how many teeth I was missing in my mouth.. My grand babies were going to be with me on Christmas eve and Christmas morning and nothing could top that!!!! What a blessing.. You know..through this entire ordeal God always seems to find a way to bless me even in my darkest hour...Words cannot explain what a wonderful God he is and just how amazing he has been to me and my family. Okay I have way too much to say and not enough time to say it in so I will stop for now, but I will continue this weekend. Wow I could write forever.. love you all