Chemo Treat # 5 Day 18

Good morning all,
What a week... where to start??? Ok on Monday I called the Doc and explained to him what I thought was going on concerning the side effects of the Neropathy meds. He told me to stop taking the meds immediately. I explained that I was worried about just stopping suddenly as I had to be weaned on slowly and wasn't sure of the effects if I just stopped suddenly. He explained (through the chemo nurse) that it was ok considering the side effects I was having from taking the meds. So I stopped immediately on Monday. I felt ok, but very tired. I woke up on Tuesday and was still very tired, but seemed to be getting a clear head again. Work was very stressful for me Tuesday and physically something just didn't feel right. I was clear headed, but tired, weak and very irritable (my poor family). I didn't sleep at all Tuesday night. I felt very emotional, restless and started breaking out in cold sweats. I got up Wednesday morning and knew there was no way I could make it into work feeling the way I was. I crawled back into bed and commenced to crying and sleeping most of the day. My husband the angel that he is looked up the effects of coming off of the Gabapentin so quickly and sure enough.. sweats, anxiety, restlessness oh and did I mention seizures?? Needless to say both my hubby and I were pretty worried at this point. Brian left for work and had Courtney keep an eye on me. I slept most of the day on Wednesday, waking up only to eat and or cry a little. Once Brian got home that night I seemed to be getting a little better. I was upset, but felt better physically. I went to work on Thursday and had a pretty good day. I felt myself getting better and better. Friday was good..pretty tired, but felt the best I had in a while. Saturday I got up and went shopping with Mom.. had a great morning, but as always I was pretty warn out by the time we got home. Brian spent all day putting Christmas lights up in the yard. I know he did it all for me. He is such an amazing man. Today I feel good. I almost feel like I have some energy. Gonna try to rest today though. Plan to do a little laundry and watch some football. Now that I am off the Gabapentin, I can feel the Neuropathy coming back, but I am willing to deal with it as the medication is no longer an option. We have a long week a head and hope to have my last Chemo treat on Wednesday. I have an appointment with the Doc tomorrow and will talk to him about all that I have been through and whether or not this last treatment is worth it. It seems each treatment takes a little more out of me each time and it gets tougher to bounce back. Honestly it's hard to say whether or not I should have this last one. On one hand I feel like we have come this far why should we quit right at the end and on the other hand I worry about how bad  the effects from this last treatment will be. I really believe that the medication had a lot to do with both my physical and mental issues and hope that we have seen the last of those issues. There really is no sure way of knowing I guess until I talk to the Doc tomorrow. My schedule for the week is this as of today.. Doc appt tomorrow, Chemo on Wednesday and Neulasta shot on Thursday. If that changes after Doc appt tomorrow I will let you know. Please pray we find the right answers and get through whatever lies ahead quickly. I feel your prayers and support every day and thank each and every one of you so very much. Have a great week and know that I love you all.