Good morning all..Let me start by saying Happy Thanksgiving to all of you. It has been a pretty crazy 8 days. Let's see Chemo went well. Felt a little sick on Thursday, but managed to go to work then went and got my Neulasta shot. Felt pretty weak on Friday, but had a wonderful day with my sis Lori. She came and spent the day with me. We watched Steel Magnolias which she had never seen before and we laughed some and cried some.. It was amazing. Had wonderful talks and just enjoyed our time together. This Ovarian Cancer has changed a lot of things in my life. Some changes not so good and some oh sooo good. I can't believe how much closer it has brought me and my family and my friends. It is so amazing. Words cannot explain how wonderful they make me feel inside. Thank you so much sis for taking the day off to sit with me. Our time together is so precious to me. Friday night was not a good night. I woke up at 2:30am and never went back to bed until 5:00pm Saturday night. This cancer has definitely taught me one thing.. Life stops for no one.. as with anyone you still have to deal with the day to day problems. We made it through though thank you God. I also learned though that this chemo is pretty tough stuff and if you dare not get the rest you need it will rare it's ugly head and let you know real quick. So off to bed I went on Saturday night. Woke up at 4am on Sunday and felt pretty bad. Very nausea, weak and out of it. I stayed in bed most of the day Sunday, until that night when I felt pretty bad. Brian bless his heart tried to sooth me the best way he knew how and insisted we take a temp reading just in case. Sure enough I had a fever of 100.0. At least now we knew what we were dealing with so took some Tylenol and laid back down and covered up like an Eskimo. Within 30 minutes my fever broke thank you Jesus and I slept for the remainder of the night. I spent most of Monday in bed. No more pain in my joints (really think the aches this time were not due to the chemo but actually from the fever) felt pretty weak though all day Monday. Tried to eat what I could on Monday in order to gain strength so I could go to work on Tuesday. I have become very adamant about making myself go to work on the Tuesday following chemo no matter how I feel. In the past it just seems to help me get over the hump. I have to admit though I was pretty worried about whether or not I would make it this time. Woke up on Tuesday and still felt pretty weak. I made myself get in the shower which for me was pretty tough as I hadn't managed to stand for more than 2 to 3 minutes over a 3 day span. I did well though. Got in, took a quick shower, got myself dressed and was determined to get to work. As I sat and drank my coffee that morning I was pretty worried about the drive in to work. My commute to work is at least an hour at best so this was quite a challenge for me. I prayed about it and asked God to lead the way. Tell me Lord.. is this a challenge best suited for another day or can we do this today???? I really wasn't sure, but drank the rest of my coffee and waited for his reply. Well as always he replied swiftly.. as I was drinking the last bit of my coffee I decided to open some email .. including my daily word for the day....and there it was.. there was the answer to my prayer.. The grace of God is upon me.
The grace of God is upon me, enabling me to meet every challenge and condition graciously. Knowing this, I rely on God's strength for the serenity to see me through every difficulty. It is God's power that gives me the ability to be gracious at all times, in all circumstances.
The grace of God is upon me, therefore, I no longer fear illness or accident, lack or limitation of any kind. The grace of God fills me with the assurance that God-life in me is perfecting every cell and every function of my body. My role is to believe and act accordingly.
The grace of God is upon me. In this knowing I am free from worry, free from discontent. I am free to be loving, kind and happy, free to enjoy every day of my life.
All of you share in God's grace.--Philippians 1:7
Now I have to ask you...Does it get much plainer than that????? I could not believe how quick and direct his response was.. (what an amazing God we have) so off to work I went. I made it to work safe and sound and I will tell you he drove my truck that morning. He took the wheel and lead me safely to where I should be. Things were slow at first that morning, but after a while I felt the strength building in me and sure enough I made it through the day and back home again. What a day!!! Wednesday morning I got up and felt so much better. I was so excited about Thanksgiving and spending time with family. Took my meds and off to Lab Corp I went as it was time for blood work. As I was driving this feeling came over me.. I started feeling tight pressure in my head and my right hand started jumping uncontrollably. I pulled over to the side of the road and by the time I got to the side of the road, the feeling stopped and so did the jumping. I felt ok so started back on the road, got to Lab Corp ok, shook it off as just a side effect of the chemo and on to work I went. I got to work and felt a little off, but not enough to say anything to anyone. As the day went on though I seemed to notice certain things that concerned me so I figured I better tell someone. I talked to my sis Leigh who thank God works with me and she determined that it was time to call the doc. So I called the doc and he seemed pretty concerned so off to the hospital I went. Now here we are it's the day before thanksgiving and now all my friends and family are worried to pieces.. this part bothers me quite a bit. I do not like to worry my family or friends like this as they have plenty going on in their lives and just the cancer it self worries them enough, but anyway it was out of my hands now. The Doctor at Baptist South decided we needed to run all kinds of tests. They ran an EKG, a Chest Xray, a CAT scan and an MRI.. Let me tell you anywhere else and I would have been there all night, but not this place I was in and out of those tests in no time.. had all the tests run and now just waiting for the results. Well just let me say Thank you once again Jesus.. everything came back great!!!!! No signs of a stroke or anything strange that would cause concern. I received my discharge papers and we were out of there by 5:00pm. Once again our God had carried me through. What we did learn at the hospital (which I really knew already, but didn't take as seriously as I should) was that you don't mess around with chemo... if you do not get the rest that is needed it will put you down quickly. So as I guess you can imagine it's nothing but rest rest rest for me for at least the next four days. Today is Thanksgiving and I have so much to be thankful for. First and foremost I am so thankful to be able to spend this Thanksgiving with my family and friends. This will be one of the best Thanksgivings ever as I will take time to enjoy each and every moment ...and savor my time with those I love and those that love me.. that's what it's all about for me now.. enjoying each moment I have with those that I love and care about.. I truly am so thankful.. you just cannot believe how wonderful the people in my life are. God has surrounded me with best of the best... and to him I give all the praise and all the glory for without him and all the blessings he has bestowed upon me I am nothing... Today and every day I give thanks..... I love you all and pray that each and every one of you have a safe and blessed Thanksgiving.
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